Hey folks,
As is tradition around here, this month’s newsletter will be a bit of a 2024 round-up – a look back at the year that’s just been and a look forward at what’s to come. Minor spoiler alert: I’m afraid this month may be a bit of a depressing one, so I hope you’ll bear with me…
The Usual
Looking back at 2023’s piece, there were already blinking red warning lights on my mental dashboard – I talked about shortening my project list to avoid burnout and the challenge of trying to keep creating in the face of a continually worsening economic and political situation. On the plus side, I ticked off every item on my project list from last December;
- Brigantia Vol. 2 art was completed, the Kickstarter was successful, and at time of writing I’ve fulfilled 91% of the rewards to backers (with progress stymied mostly by Christmas).
- Secrets of the Majestic came out at Thought Bubble and has weirdly been the most successful book I’ve ever done, with an accompanying exhibition at the Mercer Art Gallery in Harrogate, radio interviews on BBC York and an in-studio interview on BBC Radio Sheffield (a real thrill) and a ton of sales at Thought Bubble – having two debuting books obviously helped but I had the most successful con I’ve ever had on the selling front by a large margin.
- I exhibited at a couple of cons – Coco Comic Con in March which was a lot of fun, and (obviously) Thought Bubble in November. I applied to LICAF and didn’t get in this year but that’s fine, two was probably my limit given everything else that’s been going on.
- Powerhouse released our new EP with a launch gig in Sheffield that sold 143 tickets, a pretty staggering number all things considering (we then followed that up with another Halloween Ceilidh at the same venue which sold 131, so it’s probably fair to say we have a good local fanbase…) Ba’al also released our new EP (Soft Eyes) and had a great response to it, and we’ve started making serious inquiries about labels for the album so things are progressing on that front.
- I played some gigs in a couple of new cities – Glasgow, Swansea, Shrewsbury and Bristol and a festival in Bromyard. Not as many gigs as previous years but the overall quality of them was generally better – next year is looking pretty sparse on the gig front right now but notably, Ba’al are playing the second largest stage at Bloodstock (the Sophie Lancaster stage) which will be the biggest show I’ve ever done. To say I’m excited for that would be an understatement!
…but on the minus side, all this busy-ness joined forces with the depression and anxiety which spent a solid chunk of the year kicking the shit out of my mental health and completely burned out my ability or desire to write or work on comics. One of the main catalysts was probably when I sent out a pitch early in the year for a project that felt like my strongest and most emotive work (No Space Like Home), only to get a rejection back – the rest of the team for the pitch are all established and in-demand creators, so I naturally took that to mean I’m the weak link in the chain and it was a rejection of me and my ideas. Whether that’s true or not doesn’t really matter, because that’s what my brain is telling me and it’s very difficult to argue! Plus, there seem to be very few publishers worth pitching to (based on the horror stories that regularly circulate on social media around most of them), so having the most suitable one pass on a story I’d poured my heart and soul into was, to be blunt, a massive kick in the bollocks. It means that there doesn’t feel like any point working on anything new – nothing I pour time and effort into will ever get picked up by a publisher, which means my only choice is to self-publish. And I’m sick and tired of tipping money into funding entire books only to make a fraction of that back – I can’t burn any more of my savings, I’ll never have a Kickstarter mega-hit, and the landscape has changed so much in the past year or so (let’s not get into the absolute shit fire that is social media now) that funding anything feels like an impossible slog.
So the simple and logical solution, in a world where there’s no pathway to reliably making comics, is: to stop making comics. I have one project on the docket for next year (Sengoku, with Andrew Browne) and then I can comfortably say that I’m done with pissing away money, time and effort on it all. I’ll stick to lettering stories for other people where I can, since that’s much easier than trying to bring my own into the world.
I’m also making the decision to reduce this to a bi-monthly newsletter – I started it all the way back in 2020 as a way of holding myself accountable and keeping track of my writing progress, so I would feel an impetus to keep working on projects. But since I haven’t written a single page this year and have completely omitted the “The Record” section in the last few editions, that seems unnecessary now and I don’t want to waste your time when I have nothing to share! So bi-monthly it is for now, with the hope that it’ll result in a more interesting read and not something that I crank out for the sake of it.
That got a bit depressing, didn’t it? Apologies, here’s the part where I write about music and try to be a bit more cheerful:
The Tunes
As is tradition, the first half of this month’s playlist is tracks I’ve enjoyed this month while the second half comprises my favourite tracks from my top 5 albums of the year. We kick things off with Deafheaven – New Bermuda remains my favourite album of theirs, thanks mostly to some utterly gorgeous clean leads like the ones in this song. I listened to the entire album whilst walking around a snow-covered Pittsburgh in 2016 and every time I put it on I’m transported back to that magical time and place. Yoko Shimomura is up next – I haven’t been able to find out if this album is a soundtrack for anything or just her making music for herself, but it’s got some beautiful and evocative orchestral and choral sounds. I haven’t played any Fallout this month but I had the urge to listen to the soundtrack, and this one by Bob Crosby & the Bob Cats remains a banger (albeit with some very tenuous rhyming going on). Lowen are a fantastic prog/doom band from the UK with utterly mesmerising vocals from Iranian singer Nina Saeidi – the best way I can describe them is that they sound like the end of the world if it was happening in the middle of an ancient Persian temple complex. Lastly from this month, we have Ulcerate – progressive death metal and very, very good at it. This album has topped a lot of 2024 AOTY lists and I’m looking forward to seeing them at Fortress Festival next year!
Now, over to the AOTY section – first up we have the title track from the new Nile album, which I thoroughly enjoyed. As a history nerd I’ve always loved the stories and concepts that Karl Sanders (Nile’s primary lyricist) throws in, and on this album the band are in truly savage form. It might not be quite as phenomenal as their older material but it’s still miles better than most other death metal bands could dream of. Next is Gaerea – I came to this album a good while after everybody else did, but it quickly rocketed up the list to establish itself as an AOTY candidate. Lots of beautiful, reverb-drenched lead lines and an incredible production, plus rich, mature songwriting all adds up to the best atmo-black album of the year by far. Blood Incantation are another band that people have been raving about this year and once again, it’s justified – their new album is a cosmic prog-death headfuck masterpiece, calling to mind (for me) the seminal 2112 by Rush (if they’d gotten really into gnarly distortion pedals and Neil Peart had done more blastbeats). Terminal Nation are up next with the ultimate anti-police brutality anthem of 2024 – it’s not especially complicated (when compared to some of the stuff on this list) but it is very effective, and the refrain will get stuck in your head. And lastly, something completely different – this album from Laura Cannell sounds like the aural equivalent of a drug trip through Tudor England, with traditional instruments and monophonic melodies reinterpreted through a modern lens. Very lush and contemplative, so perfect for a walk through the forest.
Top 5 Things
We’re bringing it back! In no particular order, my 5 top things from this year:
1. The Ocean playing Pelagial at Damnation 2024 (gig)
My favourite band, playing my favourite album in full for the final time? It was enough to get me to buy a ticket for the first night of this year’s Damnation Festival despite not being hugely bothered by any of the other bands, and I’m pleased to report it was everything I could have hoped for and hit me right in the feels.
2. Alien: Romulus (movie)
I know there are some mixed reviews on this one, but I forked out to see it in IMAX and hoo boy, am I glad I did. It might not have reinvented the wheel but it absolutely nails the Alien aesthetic, with incredible set design and some genuine horror bits – I don’t like a couple of the choices they made but on the whole, I thought it was a great movie.
3. Warhammer 40K: Space Marine 2 (game)
Burn the heretic, kill the mutant, purge the unclean! The previous Space Marine game (10 long years ago) was a favourite of mine, so I was hyped for this sequel – and it did not disappoint. Cutting through vast swathes of Tyranids and Chaos hordes has never been more satisfying, and I was able to play through the campaign co-operatively with my battle-brother (and best man at my wedding) Martin which made the whole thing even more enjoyable. I’ve even dipped into the online modes, which I very rarely do because I don’t usually play games with other people. For the Emperor!
4. Janelle Monae at Aviva Studios, Manchester (gig)
I actually won free tickets for this show through work, which was great because I adore Janelle and her music – I took one of my oldest friends who still lives in Manchester and we had a fantastic night. It was also very shortly after we adopted our new dog Max so I hadn’t slept properly and was incredibly, health-ruiningly stressed out – so I think spending a few hours just luxuriating in great music and the strong LGBTQ vibes of the show really helped.
5. The Secrets of the Majestic exhibition
I know I’ve mentioned it above, but this has to go down as one of the top experiences of this year (and indeed my life) – I’ve never put on an art exhibition before so had no idea what to expect, but it was great to be able to showcase the fantastic work of the creators in the book and just chat to friends about the whole thing. Plus we had a massive turnout for the opening, and it’s continued to have legs in the months following – radio interviews and all!
And that was 2024! A year of ups and downs with a somewhat somber ending, and that’s without even digging into the weeks I spent in therapy for crippling anxiety or the continuing slide into enshittification of our society and our culture. 2025 probably isn’t going to be much better (and probably much, much worse) but let’s keep looking out for each other and doing what we can. On a personal level, I’ll be looking forward to a trip to India for my day job in Jan/Feb, the aforementioned Bloodstock slot and some more fun gigs and festivals – so definitely some things to get excited about at least!
Have a good evening and take care of yourselves and those close to you – and all the best for the coming year!
Cheers,